Thoughts: Out of Sight, Out of Mind

I've not met anyone that has prove me that the above does not apply to them. The fact is, it's true to the majority or at least to a good number of people out there. As 'sad' as it is, it is what it is. That is the norm. But can you blame them? People often get too occupied in life with work, family, church, exercise or living a healthy life that sometimes people just look past keeping in touch with friends and families. It is definitely much easier to stay connected to people that are physically closer as one takes the effort more to have companionship be it for an agenda or merely to have that people touch in life, nobody likes to be lonely. Even then, with a distance such as a phone call away, still if out of sight, it definitely will be out of mind for a lot of people. I'm guilty as charged as well but having two kids means I'm now a social pariah. Wait, maybe having kids is just my excuse. Matter of factly, all along I've been a social pariah that my number of friends once again is countable with just one hand. I'm definitely not a good acquaintance as a social retard like myself likes to avoid the awkward moments when I run out of topic, not even topic, small talks to talk about if I find myself not comfortable enough or not being able to 'click'. I've been told countless of times I keep diamonds in my mouth. While I may not be good at making new friends, the few friends I have are the friends I consider friends for life as these are the friends I made in my younger years. In my eyes, it's much easier to make friends during childhood times as oppose to adulthood. Children are innocent that way while as adults we over analyze everything. We have to, given the sorta creative judgement or crime people keep coming up with. Going back to topic, I myself have had my fair shares of keeping out of touch with people who are out of my sight. My grandmother is one of them. I always tell myself I ought to visit her more often because I know how lonely she gets everyday. Every time I get a phone call from her, I'm always overridden with guilt, feeling so bad for not visiting her. So that's my guilty as charge case. But in my defense, I've also put in some effort to those who are dear to me. The thing with me is that when I put in some effort to be in touch with old pals or families but I don't receive the same kinda effort, my esteem suffers a pretty big blow thinking I'm probably not as important to them as they are to me, thus I slowly seep into the withdrawal state whereby I stop trying. That doesn't make me stop thinking of the people that matters to me. I think about them all the time, I just stop my efforts because I feel a tiny wee bit unappreciated and I feel really small in their world. What's worse is that some people only call when they need a favor from me! That irks me but I usually turn a blind eye to it, giving people the benefit of the doubt. It does make me sad for not receiving the kinda same efforts but reiterating, I understand that as time pass, people get really occupied with families, work, activities and agenda of their own life. Just like me, with two kids around, it seems like there's barely time for anything. While I try to be understanding about everyone being busy living their own life, on the contrary, not having time is also an excuse. There's always time for something or someone when I or you takes the effort to make the time. 😊